I'm so excited coz in a few hours my hubby and I will be celebrating our 5th anniversary. Tomorrow will be a special day for us as we go back to the places we visited a few years after our graduation. Most of all this one very special place where we officially became a couple -- while sipping our favorite frappe.
A few weeks ago I was browsing through my files and came upon my saved collection of Friendster blogs which I like to share with you as we revisit the days when we were just starting to enter into the best thing that ever happened to us.
Happy 5th Anniversary Honey – Hao Ma!! As I said before… Let’s stay together, forever. I love you so much!!
As I start
the year I begin to think --- its 2007, I’m already 26 and time really flies
fast. I start making plans... For myself… but somehow can't manage to come up
with long term plans as I used to. I begin to worry--most of the time think of
the future. I don’t want to grow old alone and stay here. I used to foresee my
future as a happy and rewarding one--of course with my own family by that time.
My friends
who know me best are asking -- when are you going to have your special someone?
I guess they know it really takes a long time for me to get over a break up and
enter into another relationship coz it’s been like that ever since. The last
time took 3 years. But not because I’m not yet over my ex… I guess it's because
when I’m ok I tend to enjoy life more---alone---but with my friends of course**u
know what I mean by alone. I become choosy in a way. I easily lose interest
in someone I thought I like especially when I sense he's not that interested
anyway. I’m not really sure what I’m looking for in a person. But one thing's
for sure -- no matter how long it takes, I believe there's someone out there
for me... my better half **future better half, shall I say. Maybe our
paths haven't crossed yet, or maybe he's someone I already know. But one day
when the right time comes... we both will know and realize >>> YOU'RE
THE ONE FOR ME… THE ONE I WAITED FOR, FOR A LONG TIME. Now isn’t that the
nicest thing that could happen to someone? And that's definitely worth waiting
for.
>>>In
the end it won't matter anymore how long you've waited, how painful life has
been--- It will be worth everything. When you find your happiness all will make
sense. You'll see the fruit of your labor. You'll never know how it feels to be
truly happy unless you experience pain. And you'll just remember all the bad
things that happened and realize you've been thru the worst and you survived.
(2) To Wherever He Will Lead
Me 2007/03/08
Many
people make many different plans for their future -- how to spend the years to
come and who to spend them with. I used to be one of them. Not that I'm saying
I don't have plans anymore but after spending many years of setting my mind to
something and almost living it, it just came to a point where I suddenly woke
up and found myself stranded---in an isolated place where no one can reach me.
After the trials I just had to fight then realized I've been thru the
worst--thru the lowest point of my life… and I survived!! Now I have everything
(**almost) =)... But one thing's for sure. I know I'm stronger... been
thru many trials… experienced a roller coaster of emotional turmoil but managed
to surpass them.
Now I'm in
the stage of my life where I'm still finding myself. My happiness maybe.
Serenity --- I used to pray for my dreams and plans to come to reality but now
I pray for Him to guide me---to wherever He will lead me--- now I can say it's
up to You. My decisions are not my own anymore but Yours. I still believe in my
destiny and now I can fulfill it though I don't exactly know what it is yet. I
thank Him for the trials that made me stronger and a better person. Each day I
learn to appreciate the things and people I used to take for granted. He gave
me a new beginning. Many years have been wasted but still... As the saying goes
-- Better Late Than Never.
(3)
-= the ‘one’ for me =- 2007/04/06
(4) I found him at last 2007/05/18
This year
started good for me. Before 2006 ended around October, I came to many
realizations after getting thru a lot in the past months. Trying to find
myself, looking for answers, feeling alone despite many people around me...
Then I started praying for my destiny. I start to ask Him--Is there really
someone out there for me? Or I’m "doomed" --to live my life either
being alone or waiting for someone who already belongs to someone else like I
used to do many times before. After a few weeks a big sign came right in front
of me... At first I didn’t take it seriously and thought it was just a coincidence
but after a few more weeks I started dreaming of someone -- someone I already
know from my college days --- a very good friend whom I haven’t heard from for
a few years. Again I didn’t want to take it seriously but the dreams came so
regularly so I thought, these are not just coincidences, these are definitely
SIGNS!
So I
started looking for him. At first there was a bit of hesitation coz there were
so many questions bothering me like what if he doesn't want to talk to me
anymore or he's already committed to someone or we were really meant to be just
friends...things like that...but I thought it's worth the risk... he's worth
the risk... and if there was someone I could trust it's definitely him. Knowing
him for many years now, he's a good person (as I remember). He never
made me feel bad. He was the one person who has always been there to cheer me
up, looking after me from a distance. Then after asking around (asking
almost everyone possible) just to find him… After almost losing hope coz
he's nowhere to be found, as if he literally disappeared, I found him at
last!! Here in Friendster... hehe.
A lot of 'kamustahan' came. I was so surprised to find out he's working in
China (at that time I thought, this can’t be, wala na talaga, I’M DOOMED!!!)...
But then DESTINY found its way... NAKS!! Just last month he came
home for a few days vacation... we met... then there was magic!! --- DEFINITELY
MAGIC!
Now I'm
complete. He completed my life. Now we take things one step at a time, making
plans, trying to make China and Philippines as near to each other as possible
=) I never thought this is possible, we never did... but what can I
say--DESTINY WILL REALLY FIND ITS WAY NO MATTER WHERE YOU ARE OR HOW LONG IT
TAKES.
(5)
TEN YEARS AFTER 2007/06/01
1997...
Section B118 - SW403 - MIT IE 1st year block section... It was the first day of
school that he claims when he saw me sitting in front of the classroom. He was
among the pinakamagulong boys sitting at the back making fun of our
profs and classmates laughing at almost anything possible (yes, that's
definitely him!!) We became
friends talk for hours over the phone,
then we parted ways almost 3 years ago. I dreamt of him (almost every day
late last year) and I decided to search for him. Surprisingly he's in
China!! But love came through (wink)…
Whoever thought after ten years we'll be a couple? A "perfect match"
most people say. He says he's lucky but I think it's the other way around. I
never thought I'd be lucky enough to have someone as 'perfect' as him (perfect
na sana manginginom lang… joke lang**pero half-meant** sigh)
So why
after ten years? Why only now? We've been asking the same question over and
over (but it feels so good - the thought of the one for you is someone you
already know many, many years ago) After coming across many signs then later on
realizing he's someone I would wanna keep for the rest of my life (how I
wish), then searching for him almost anywhere possible (while at
the back of my mind ang tanga tanga ko dati nandito lang sya palagi), I’ve
proven he's really my destiny.. THIS IS IT!!! I LOVE HIM. .. I REALLY
DO. I love him with every inch of my being... from the smallest thing he does
to the biggest... no doubt... I love him.. Coz he loves me with all his heart (feeling!! =) ) he makes me laugh, he's
caring, sweet, overprotective, paranoid (na rin gaya ko), smart, good
looking, tall, understanding, full of life, optimistic, responsible and not to
mention patient (ten years ba naman) There's no reason for me not to
fall for him. Ever since he's always been there watching over me... I do
believe he did love me ten years ago, he still does now, and he always will.
He's someone I want to grow old with and have a family with… someone I could
trust... who will take care of me. I feel safe when I’m with him. His love is
more than enough for me. God lead me to him - my missing piece - and our
feelings will stay this way ten years after and for the rest of our days...
(6)
-I LOVE YOU- 2007/08/19
i love the
way you smile... the way you laugh
the
feeling of your hand against mine
my head
against your shoulder
the way
you stare at me as if you're looking through my soul
the
feeling of security when im with you
i love it
when we kiss.. when we hug
i love the
thought of you silently loving me since college
i love
watching you sleep like a baby
i love it
when we talk about anything & everything til we fall asleep
i love the
moments we share when we laugh at the simplest things
i love the
feeling when you're being insecure coz it shows how much i mean to you
i love
your face, your height, your eyes, your built, the way you dress up
i love the
thought of us growing old together
needless
to say... i love everything about you. Now i know you're my missing half coz you're
the only one who made me felt this way. I know my heart's finally in the right
place. I love you now and I will love you for the rest of my life.
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